Monday, August 27, 2007
I've not blog for 2 days. Weekend was great. I spend a lot of time with my family. But on Saturday, I also did something very dreadful which I regretted very much. It was the first time and my heart really aches, even until now. What had happened ? *sigh* I caned my girl... my poor baby.
My little sunshine girl can get a little out of hand sometimes. She's at this stage whereby she's testing authorities. She cannot really differentiate between right from wrong. Hence, it's really the responsibility of the caregivers to advocate and discipline her. Sometimes, she'll show displeasure by screaming continuously at the top of her voice, raise her hand to beat you or even show defiant simply by being disobedient. As parents, we hope to teach her to the best that we can, not so much of raising an academically strong kid but a child with good character and personality. To me, I believe that EQ is much more important than IQ and it is the EQ that will get one to progress further in life.
On sat morning, her darling papa gave her a bath in the morning. After bathing, she refused to get dressed even after much coaxing and scolding. Just simply being naughty lah... actually, it was just a small issue, but I don't know what had got into me, I took the cane and decided to whack her four times! That was the first time I caned her, so I didn't know how much damage it would cost. After four strokes, four red lines of about 5 cm each surfaced on her little chubby left thigh! My gosh, my heart sank. I didn't know that I had exerted too much strength on her coz I have never caned anyone before. My heart really aches. My little girl did not shed a tear but she obediently relent and her papa could dress her easily. After a while, I explained to her why mommy "pah pah" (beat beat) her. She seemed to understand and was just as affectionate to me as ever. I kissed and hugged her to made up for my mistake and also to show her that mommy still loves her very very much. She's still my lovely girl.
However, I was consumed by my own guilt even though I have always believe in "Sparing the rod and spoiling the child". Although the red marks subsided after a while, they had left a permanent scar in my heart. I tell myself that I'll not use the cane on her again, unless really necessary. *sigh*
It really takes a lot of patience to raise a child and I'm still a learning mommy.
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